Contradictions

I am so lost, I finally have lost myself into what I thought I should be, nad that kinda sucks, because thats just something i think would be easier to be, and it was. Until it hit me, and hit me hard, my inner walls are broken down, and my indifrence is fading. I can't breath, and It makes me restless. I'm so tired of this, yet I find myself willingly coming back for more. I find myself more myself It's complicated....and tiring...and a relief... I'm comming back to reality, I was happier back then, but now I'm more me, and my mask is falling, yet I find I don't need it anymore, and all because of a stupid school.